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Truth [May. 1st, 2004|01:38 pm]
newyears_day

_redlight
Don't try to tell me you're the victim here
I have reserved no sympathy for you
Stop making me promise I believe you
Halfhearted trust is not trust at all
I know that they're lies

Let's not play 'Who's Hurting More'?
Because I will win
By forfeit

You're in too deep
And it's killing you, isn't it?
Because you know that I know
The truth
That I've outsmarted you
Again

- _redlight
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2004|11:23 pm]
newyears_day
deaker
It was a lonely holiday
I was alone -- you were away
In Fayetteville or in another state
There's so many towns I hate

When you leave me, it breaks me like a bone
But it's never as bad as when you come home
Thought so much about suicide
Parts of me have already died

Lonely baby I'm not lonely
Baby I'm not I've got my imaginary friends
Happy baby I'm so happy
Baby I'm so I've got my imaginary friends
And if you don't love me, would you please pretend?

It was a lonely holiday
I was alone I was afraid
The bedroom walls were closing in
It must be closing time again

When you leave me, it breaks me like the note
That you said got stuck in your throat
Thought so much about suicide
Parts of me have already died
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the 1st two are old and the 3rd new....let me know if i suck or not.. [Feb. 23rd, 2004|05:01 pm]
newyears_day
su_zlastbreath
[mood |boredbored]
[music |yellowcard-ocean avenue]

we gave it our best
didnt we--didnt i?
will you lie again?
i guess so
come in small numbers
and leave with even less

guilty pleasures we approve
never could pass it up
could you admit it at all?
i figure not
friends come disguised
and leave w/ out a fingerprint

backs turned 4ever
4get the day we walked
and decided out futures
mine involved you
but now you seem so faint
while ive disappeared completely
and youll never regret
i 4give fate
balcony nights
the freesh air made me
tears--wipe them away
4get you ever saw them
who needs a reminder
of a faulty scene?
lets erase it all
cuz its just 2 much
a convenience
4 you 2 abuse
-----------------------------------
these days are so long
the door closes
but no one left
ateast i cant remember if
you can pick them out
the splinters in my veins
throbbing right from my iris
but nothing will change
finding it hard 2 signify
a reason 4 the unsightless
i am asinine with myself
loathe the mirrors picture
black birds fly to my window
and sing me this lullaby
of a plague of regret
out we come
up and summon the wings
eveivt the body bag
slowly zip it up
close the sinful eyes
and exhale
while the thorns absorb it all
and the body is just that
a memory of an open door
that never seems 2 close
-=------------------------------------------
i'll be the houdini
of this moment
now you see me (now you dont)
and w/ my eyes tied to my back
my heart torn but still on my shoulder
destroy and glorify
how you turned these blue skies to ash
turned these warry breaths
into a memory

C: ill write the story
and do it right this time
the part where i became you
will be shattered to never

and plz do tell me
that theres a chance to make it
theres a reason to stay
i search for the end of the world
with no succession
with you encoded into my veins
flowing thru the veins of doubt
one in a billion ways to die
and only one true way to love
C:
cast off
i am your collection
and here i rust on the shelf of your mind
my heart
you keep it caged
to see if it can get out on its own
but you know it cant (know it wont)
i needs you
like the brain to oxygen
heart to blood
life to death
me to you
I NEED YOU!

C:
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(no subject) [Feb. 21st, 2004|07:14 pm]
newyears_day

_redlight
It was thought up in anger.
It was read in anger.
And you hate me for it. I hate me for it.
I'm not making up excuses about why.
Because they'd be lies.
And I am not a liar.
I wish I didn't. Every second, I wish that I didn't.
Oh, if I could take it back. Erase it.
But I can't do that, because it's too late.
It's done.
I'm stupid for hurting you.
Such an idiot, for making you hurt.

And when you hurt, I hurt.
It's killing me.
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Until The Day I Die [Feb. 21st, 2004|12:20 pm]
newyears_day
simple_whisper
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
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Harder to breathe [Feb. 15th, 2004|11:30 pm]
newyears_day
simplyxperfect
[mood |lonelylonely]
[music |Maroon 5 "Shiver"]

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold
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Mirror [Feb. 2nd, 2004|11:09 pm]
newyears_day

_redlight
I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
What ever you see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful---
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is a part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.

-Sylvia Plath
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(no subject) [Feb. 2nd, 2004|02:47 am]
newyears_day

robot_bingo
[mood |crushedcrushed]

"Make Believe"  The Early November

is it enough
to believe that you are real
sometimes it gets tough
believing in myself

well is it just me
it could be that i'm always wrong

i hear it in my head
twisting and lies
till we're sure i'm wrong
but i forget
how you broke my heart
or how you find yourself
untimely falling for someone else dear

and every time
something like this happens
you always make it seems
like i did something wrong to you

well guess what
i can't do this anymore
so next time
you're thinking about telling me
what i do wrong
think about
all i let myself
forget


why can't you
have me
and be happy
at the same time

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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2004|07:10 pm]
newyears_day

spinklesofsun
do any of you know a nice song with lyrics about a girl who wants a boy but he doesnt notice her. he just considers her as the friend and he wants the girl he cant have. the girl who wants this boy wants him to know she cares for him without it being obvious.


any help is much appreciated :)
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(no subject) [Jan. 29th, 2004|08:39 pm]
newyears_day

xfuckinxfuckx
[mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[music |SUBLIME... YEAH YEAH]

Last Cigarette: 5 MINUTES AGO
Last Alcoholic Drink: 20 MINUTES AGO
Last Car Ride: HOME FROM SARAHS
Last Kiss: 30 SECONDS AGO
Last Good Cry: UMM ON MY B DAY
Last Library Book checked out: COURTNEY LOVE BIOGRAPHY
Last Movie Seen in Theatres: GOTHICA
Last Book Read: 5 PEOPLE YOU MEET IN HEAVEN
Last Movie Rented: HOW TO INJECT A PENIS UP UR BUMM HOLE
Last Cuss Word Uttered: TAYLIWHORE
Last Beverage Drank: COKE
Last Food Consumed: BEGAL BITES
Last Crush: HAHA WELL THERES THESE 2 BOYS.. HMMM
Last Phone Call: MAMMMA
Last TV Show Watched: FULL HOUSE
Last Time Showered: LIKE AN HOUR AGO
Last Shoes Worn: I DONT WERA SHOES
Last CD Played: SUBLIME SUBLIME
Last Item Bought: MY MOMMY A DIRE STRAIGHTS CD
Last Download: THE DOORS
Last Annoyance: BOYS
Last Disappointment: MY BRAND NEW HOT GUY AND ALL HIS HOT FRIENDS
Last Soda Drank: RIGHT NOW
Last Thing Written: IM TALKIN TO BOB
Last Key Used: B
Last Word Spoken: I DONT REMEMBER... MAYBE I WAS LAUGHIN
Last Sleep: IN SCHOOL
Last IM: BOB
Last Weird Encounter: THIS ALIAN TEXT MESSAGE
Last Ice Cream Eaten: I HATE ICE CREAM
Last Time Amused: TALKIN ABOUT HOW LESLIE KILLD KEITH
Last Time In Love: BULL SHIT
Last Time Hugged: WESTLEY A COUPLE OF HOURS AGO
Last Time Scolded: HMMM
Last Chair Sat In: MY COUCH?? IM SITTIN ON IT RIGHT NOW BABY
Last Sunglasses worn: MY AUNTS AT MY UNCLES B DAY ON MONDAY
Last Boxors worn: HAHA IM NOT TELLIN WHOS
Last Shirt Worn: I FORGOT
Last Pants: SWEAT PANTS RIGHT NOW
Last Webpage Visited: I LOVE COCK.COM
Last Song Listened to: BUTTERFLY BY WEEZER
Last favorite band: BTDT
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